Another Sleepless Night

I’ve been crying over things. Friends who don’t stay in touch. A death of a sibling whom I felt extremely close to but something got in the way and years went by and I always thought I would get another hug. It’s not going to happen ever in this lifetime for me. 

A good cry is sometimes what is needed. I’ve been missing another someone but it’s almost like I am grieving or adrift in a rip because they just aren’t responding. I should just phone or  drop a line again. It just gets tiring always reaching out no response.

Songs keep popping into my head like Sting ‘When you love somebody’ or Sheryl Crow ‘favorite mistake’ which just makes me feel more adrift. 

Time to let go; perhaps way past time to let go but I still hold on tight in this rip I am caught in because this person reminds me of my beloved sibling whom I lost. 

Is it some demented primal game I am taunting myself with? It’s another sleepless night grappling with a situation which should be so simple to deal with but it’s complicated in my mind.


Random Ponder

Nothing ventured, nothing gained but in all of this things will never be the same. Looking to the left or looking to the right, it doesn’t really matter because it’s not in sight. In knowing something needs to be said or done, it doesn’t make it any easier when the answer just won’t come. Too many options for the infinite to try to make it finite and would making it finite actually be right. So many questions, so many answers perhaps one should just keep thinking on the matter.

Don’t feel sorry for the blind because sometimes they can see things better than you. They could have a better positive attitude and wake you up to your illusion. Learn from others and don’t come to conclusions because if you do it might lead to even grander delusions.

Look for pleasure in every little thing and treasure pain because one day it might end. Whisper sweet nothings to ones you hold dear to help them know they are the one thing you want near. Every good thing will come to an end just treasure what you haveĀ Alleluia! Amen!

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